I wanted to go ahead and do it this way because I don't want to feel like I'm bugging anyone on the board that doesn't care or is sensitive to these types of things. Eventually, I hope to kind of write about the whole thing from birth to now so that maybe I can find some closure that way. I don't seem to be getting there with the other ways I've been trying.
My sister and I talked again tonight, and I told her all that was said between Marjorie and me. She and I compared feelings, and I heard a great big sigh from her followed by a gushing about how nice it was to talk with someone who didn't judge her for wanting to know this woman, had the same feelings as her and understood exactly what it felt like to be in this position. And I can't even put into words what it is, but I'm just at peace when I talk to her. She gets it.
Can you make these things private? I haven't checked it out yet. I'd like to set it that way as of now if I can.
The questions for her will get much harder, but I want to get her in the habit of being comfortable answering honestly.
Blogging is a great way to get it all out, and it is more permanent if you want it to be. You can set it to private and send invitations to those you want to read it (or keep it all to yourself). Go to your dashboard and it is somewhere under settings. I am on a couple of private group blogs (non MMs) and I have a private blog journal as well. Hugs to you. You are a strong, awesome mother and woman.
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